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Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Thoughts from my heart...


We are off for a long weekend trip! The best part Kenny is riding with us and we will meet up with Lindsay and Chloe tomorrow! It feels weird to be away from my kids on Mothers Day but we have a celebration on the calendar for a day really soon. Steve actually started this "tradition" of going away the first year after my mom passed. And it works for me....
Mothers Day is probably the hardest holiday without her. Even though I am a mom it feels like it should still be all about my own Momala. I read a great quote about loss and it said "suddenly you wake up one day and it isn't the first thing on your mind" I am thankful for that truth and can attest to it,but it sure never really gets better. So I am glad we will be away making new memories.
I have shared before about the rose bush in my yard that always blooms on Mothers Day! The last three years it has had four blooms and I've said its for each of her 4 kids.But this year surprisingly there are FIVE amazing pink roses! This year it must be for the "Carter 5" since this is the first Mothers Day that Ashlyn has officially been part of our family. So I am thinkin my sweet mom is blowing the Carter family kisses from heaven! Silly maybe, but I find it sweet and comforting. And YaYa would sure have loved our girl! To all of you who are moms I wish you the sweetest day! There is seriously NO greater joy to me than being a Mom. And I am overwhelmingly grateful to have such amazing role models of motherhood in my life....

I cannot forget my mother. She was my bridge. When I needed to get across, she steadied herself long enough for me to run across safely~



3 comments:

Melanie said...

Thank you for sharing this beautiful post... I can't even imagine how much you miss your Mom- it brings tears to my eyes just to think about it... Have a a good time with Steve, Kensay and Clo :)

G & H said...

Your mom is so beautiful and you look just like her! Happy MOther's Day to you!

ashlyn carter said...

i love ya ya so very much. what a sweet gift from her this mothers day. we love YOU as our momma so ver much! xoxo